Thursday 16 March 2023

Why I Fast

By Mike Parker

Often, I either get asked straight out why I fast or people suggest I do it for attention.  Sometimes I see that people post they do it for someone or something or to be noticed.  However, not me.  I look in the mirror and see a fat person.  I know what the scales and the BMI and what the professionals say, but I know they must either be blind or they are just trying to make me feel OK about being fat.  

Sunday 12 March 2023

Eating Was A Mistake

By Mike Parker

Deep down inside I know that eating is a mistake.  I will just either end up over eating my self set limit or I will have to battle with feelings of hunger.  Despite this, sometimes I have to eat because I must do to survive or I'm worried about food going off.  Fortunately, more often than not, ana comes to my rescue and slays the hunger.

Saturday 11 March 2023

Keeping Track Of Calories

By Mike Parker

It is not enough for me to just limit my portion sizes and foods.  I need a way to keep count of my calorie intake.  I noticed others using accountability threads and started to copy.  Now I make charts for myself. 

Friday 10 March 2023

Protein Shake For Dinner: Day 2

By Mike Parker

For the last two days, I have been eating nothing and only drinking one protein shake as a meal. In addition, I limit the amount of tea, coffee, and cordial I drink to keep the calorie count for the day under 300 calories.

Thursday 9 March 2023

I Feel So Fat And Stupid

By Mike Parker. 

It's 1:30 in the morning and I can't sleep because I feel so stupid and fat. I have been overeating for about 4 days now, and I don't know when it is going to stop.  I stayed awake most of the night and was in no condition to go to work the next day and I had the overwhelming feeling to workout all day.  I called in sick at got some sleep.  Now I have woken up in the late afternoon, I'm down in the dumps and feel stupid, I'm frightened to eat anything and to make matters worse it is sleeting outside, which rules out a bike ride.

Tuesday 7 March 2023

I Hate Myself For Wanting To Eat

By Mike Parker

Sometimes when I get up, I feel hungry instead of sick. This is not a good sign.  Before I start, I notice how peaceful this morning is.  I can hear nothing but the sound of the birds and the buzzing fridge.  As I sit here in this state of calm it begins to change into feelings of sadness because I realise I am going to eat breakfast.