By Mike Parker.
It's 1:30 in the morning and I can't sleep because I feel so stupid and fat. I have been overeating for about 4 days now, and I don't know when it is going to stop. I stayed awake most of the night and was in no condition to go to work the next day and I had the overwhelming feeling to workout all day. I called in sick at got some sleep. Now I have woken up in the late afternoon, I'm down in the dumps and feel stupid, I'm frightened to eat anything and to make matters worse it is sleeting outside, which rules out a bike ride.
Trying to describe these dreadful feelings of doom and gloom is so difficult. I have to get motivated for a workout, but I just feel so worthless. As the day progresses, I manage to do some exercises, but nothing like a proper workout. I have, in fact, wasted this day in my dressing gown. I have not eaten anything and only had a protein shake all day. As I sit here, it is almost like I can feel the fat on my body and I'm weighted down by hopelessness and depression. I just can't seem to move forward mentally, emotionally or physically.
Since this day has become one of fasting, I have started to think I should try the two day a week fast that I have read about in a book. However, I'm planning to make it a protein shake day and limiting the cals to less than 300 for those days. The two days I'm thinking of having as fast days are Wednesday and Friday, but I will see. The other thing I have been thinking about is the ABC diet. ABC is short for Anorexic Boot Camp. This would involve adding the cals each day and when they add up to 800 cals the next day is a fast.